Well! Last night was a long night! And I woke up to some strange dreams (yuck!) that left me in a funk to start off the day. I walk into the kitchen to husband making waffles!! He also made potatoes and got some sausage for a yummy treat. It was noon (ahh!) by that time and Bubby was still snoozing. I have no idea what time I actually fell asleep but Ian tells me that he and Bubby were up until 4 AM!!!! Poor baby was having some serious struggles! That was the first time in forever that he’s has a night that bad. It seemed to have started with a nasty nightmare and he was so distraught and worked up…he couldn’t sleep. I am SO thankful for the help of my husband. I was TOAST!!! So, walking into the kitchen to fresh breakfast right away was SO sweet!!!
Brody was in a fabulous mood and ate really well! He even stole some of my food too! Even Ian was super ornery and sparky, which made me smile. I on the other hand, felt like a pile of yuck. I’m getting less and less comfortable during sleep now. Last night the new baby must’ve been stretching out all over, because I had a heck of a time! Plus the nightmares… of course crazy ones involving family. I definitely was zoned out and not too chipper. By the time breakfast wrapped up, it was time for Bubbys well-baby appointment! Sooo, we scrambled around a bit. Ian and Bubby pumped up some music and were dancing a lot, which was super adorable and hilarious! I could feel my mood improving, which was much needed. I got a good hot shower and then tried out Skin Icing (gasp!) and LOVED it! More on that later!
So, we get out to the appointment and everything went fabulously. Our family doc said Brodderik looked great and of course we got to chat about the battery incident. Man, it’s never going to not be weird thinking about it! Let alone chatting with more doctors about it. But, seeing Brody coopoerate well was really nice, however a little emotional for me. He pointed at the stethoscopes and then motioned to his heart. He knew exactly to sit perfectly still and was excited to see the thermometer and the kart machine. The nurses at Children’s would let him play with the buttons. Definitely mixed feelings, but Ian got to come with us so that was very comforting! As usual, Brody got a new book for the visit and he was super excited to carry it around. Things like that make me smile and feel how sweet and fun his innocence is . Lately, he’s been very interested in reading and he even brings me books so we can sit down and read together. I think I’m doing something right? I don’t often get that feeling but lately, I’m grateful to see light bulbs going off for Brody. He’s saying tons more words now! It’s so fun and surprising! Finally! He’s learning English, (lol)! The other day, he found some headphone and plugged them in, then started music on my phone!!
-Mr. Smarty Pants Baby-
On another note, I think Ian and I have made a breakthrough. It was only last week, but it’s made a huge impact on us already. These past couple years have been very staining for us and then after Brody’s accident, life has been completely different. We’ve both struggled together and separately with what’s happened and coping has been a battle. I don’t think I realized how much hurt was present until Ian and I got to talk one night. I cried… he cried… but, I think we healed. In a new way. I think since then, we’ve been on our way out of the complicated chaos of our hearts. I am so grateful for the transparency and the vulnerability between us. Though, it was a serious mountain to climb. I realized… that both of us have been living with guilt. Both of us felt that we were at fault. And both of us didn’t know how to overcome the trauma alone. I think we tried to be strong for each other, but alone we suffered. Now that we’ve had some time to see and to speak, we are in a new place.
-A not so selfie ready Bubby. Salty face!-
This time is different. I can see how much brighter and happier my husband is. How much a burden has been lifted and how free his heart is becoming. I feel these things too, and I feel like we are closer each day that goes by. Like we are entering a new chapter with renewed spirits and love for each other. I feel giddy and lovesick for him like when I first met him. Did I mention that our 7 year mark just passed? My mind is spinning! My life is more clear now than it’s ever been, and I am grateful. I could never have ever asked for a more amazing person to be my best friend.
Ian has given me the love and freedom to be Me. And, I understand so much more. With that, I’ve realized a lot about who I am. I love my life! I’m excited about things! I feel like learning again! And I’ve spent time doing that. I look forward to what’s coming and I’m stronger than ever. I think that it’s becoming contagious. Because lately, there’s been a big change in Ian. And, when he talks about his excitement for our new baby…I just melt!!! And seeing him run around with Brody just makes me love him more. Is it possible for someone’s heart to burst? From all these good feelings?
-Out and about!-
In addition to that, I’ve got some fun things to share. Like health and beauty stuff, ha ha! Sooo today, I’m super excited! I got to pick up my activated charcoal!! Tonight the hubs and I are going to try out a mask! Yay! Anywho, as you know, I’ve been working on an all natural approach to healing my skin. I stopped wearing makeup in the process so I wouldn’t complicate the process. But, alas! I wore some makeup a couple days in a row and realized it was just seriously not working out for me. I noticed a couple new breakouts trying to get started. Ugh…and I noticed that my foundation no longer matched my skin as well as making me oily and shiny? Obviously, time to pitch it! So! I spent a couple hours finally getting a project done! I purged more unneeded products and things and made a suitable vanity space. My brain is SO happy! All of my makeup is now in sight, organized, and simplified! Along with my jewelry and accessories! Voila!
This is such a relief for me! I realized I didn’t have a good space to do my makeup when I went out the other night. So here it is!!
All of my lip products, then some eye shadows, a place for my extra glasses, then pencils, mascaras and eye products, bobby pins, and clippers/tweasers/files.
In the middle I have a two sided mirror, some brushes, and my prettiest jewelry. Oh! And a picture of me and my honey with a bear he got me on Valentines one year.
Lastly, I’ve got essential oil blends for skin care, new (matching) liquid foundation, setting powder, blemish correcting primer, rosewater glycerin mist, stretch mark cream, hair Oil, face powder palettes, various brushes, eyeshadow compact, primers, and all natural make up removing wipes (infused with frankincense and myrrh.)
Right above, I also have my essential oils organized and easily accessible. Not all from doTERRA, but the box is fabulously handy (thanks Laura!). Lots of amazing benefits! What do I use Oils for? Tons of stuff! Skin care, mood, fighting sickness, home cleaning supplies, perfume, cleansers, deodorizing the house, prayer/meditation, and any new thing possible!
As far as new makeups, I feel kinda lame but super happy! I was never one to spend a lot of time checking out what different brands offered what. I never had the time to just explore and figure out what really worked for me. As I got older I’d buy something different when something ran out. My skin has also bounced around tons throughout the years! Now that I’m a mama to be again, I’m facing hormonal skin aspects. So, I was nervous to buy new but I always keep an open mind. Until I can have a little extra to spend on the makeup I have in mind, I found E.L.F. and I’m ecstatic! I know it’s been around a while, but I’ve never tried it! So here’s what I found!
First off, yes that is a Bubby foot. He was excited to help me unpack everything! I realized later that those piggies made it in the shot, but it was too adorable to delete!
So, I purchased 2 different mascaras, 2 different foundations (on accident, 1 is wet n’ wild and the other is covergirl lol), a setting powder, a blurring foundation brush, a lip plumper/primer, a lip exfoliator, a blemish correcting primer, a color correction palette, and a blush/contour palette. And I didn’t spend a fortune! Under $80 for all of it! E.L.F. Believes in providing quality makeup that doesn’t cost an arm and a leg. The mascara? $2. Yes. $2!!! I tried it today, and it is fabulous! Perfect lash separation, no clumps, no flaking, easy volume, and great lengthening! Everything a woman wants in Mascara!!
Also, last night after feeling some inflammation rising up on some wannabe breakouts… I made skin icing cubes! Read about the fabulous benefits here >
I found a recipe for tea and essential oils. So I used my favorite mint medley tea, patchouli, and tea tree oil. I combined it all and froze it overnight! When I used a cube after my shower today I was super refreshed! And those new pimples? The swelling and pain stopped, the redness lessened, and they are going away! Seriously, read up and try it out for yourself! Using oils not only medicates and treats your skin, you also get amazing aromatherapy all day! Win win! There are tons of combinations you can try for less wrinkles, better pores, less breakouts, and brighter smoother skin! I did this before applying my makeup and my skin has felt amazing all day. My makeup even went on super smooth! I am a fan!
– ready to give a fabulous medicated ice facial!-
So, tonight, I’ll Skin Ice again and enjoy some new tea the hubs got me called Mama To Be! Then put on a charcoal mask, and lay around and watch Ian play video games. Cozy, pampered, happy mama.
– Yummy!!!!! Contains raspberry leaf, nettle, spearmint, ginger, oatstraw, rose petals, lemon balm, and chamomile.-
– 1lb of activated charcoal! –
Also, I’m in love with Shea Moisture’s products! All natural and free of yucky stuff! I’m going to try out their African Black Soap, for my lazy days. Plus, I’ve incorporated rose water too! Just as well, grape seed oil is great for mixing with essential oils for massage and skin care. Just thought I would share about these gems!
How bout a goodbye baby selfie?
Thanks for reading!!